Sensuality

Hi, dear MH community! First off, thank you for being so amazing! This is the first time I’m sharing a story. Well, it’s more of a fantasy of mine, a happy anticipation, which I’m looking forward to experiencing with my precious future hubby someday. I’ve never written up something like this before. But God woke me up to this scene playing in my mind one morning, and I enjoyed the thought of it, so I thought why not share it with you all. To all those of you, used to steamy, pantie wetting, no-holds-barred marriage action, please forgive me if I can’t vividly depict this part of the magic of becoming one just yet. I promise I’ll get better at capturing the marriage HEAT once I have experienced it for real with my own precious hubby. Hope you still like it. God bless! 🙂

 

There we lie, side by side in our marriage bed, you, my love, and I, closely intertwined. Oh, how I love the way you hold me in your warm embrace! You envelop me with your strong right arm, nestling it up against my chest, where I meet it, all the more snuggling up to you. I can feel your every heartbeat on my skin and every breath of air you take, as your beautiful chest presses against my back. My head keeps resting on your arm, and we hold one another’s hand. On my neck I feel the warmth of your breath as you lean in closer, greeting me with soft kisses, your fingers smoothly caressing the palm of my hand. Honey, you know how divine this feels to me. Our eyes are closed, as we are in the middle of waking to this new day. Skin on skin, we savor the sensuality and cherish the serenity of this moment of pure marriage bliss, which we get to share so freely.

I roll over on my back and, as I see the gentle look in your eyes, which I so love, I can’t help but smile. Beholding the beauty of this moment, I remember how long I’ve waited to be found by the one, whom I am made for by God. I remember how much I’ve anticipated to be held in your arms, my love, and the entire wait was well worth it… For here you are, forever to be by my side, my husband, my beloved, and I’m your bride.

Looking at each other deeply in the eyes, we kiss and you begin to run your fingertips softly along the inside of my arms. From the palm of my hand all the way to my upper arm, I feel your sweet touch as you trace your way back to my palm. Your fingernails tickle me, and the sensation of it sets off sparks in me. As I lay there surrendered to your loving touch, you gaze upon the beauty of my breasts – soft and sweet, they are. From now until forever, you know they are yours alone to take. As you begin to feast on them, kissing, cupping and sucking them, I feel the passion rising instantly in me, and my hands are now running all over your beautiful body. My thigh is rubbing against yours, inviting you to come even closer yet. Sweetheart, I love the feeling of your locked and loaded manhood pressing hard against my hips and butt.

My love place is throbbing on the inside for your coming and I feel its juices flow. As you now focus your attention to my pulsating garden, working your sweet magic with your fingers and kisses, I spread my legs as I’m eagerly anticipating for us to become one. I am ready for you to take my breath away – my garden, wide open for only you – and then you finally enter me. Slowly, you go in deep. You fill me completely and I want to hold this moment for eternity. Jennifer Rush’s Power of Love starts playing in the back of my mind and I feel like being in heavenly places. So divine! Heaven on Earth is what you feel too. Although I’m sure the tune that would be playing in your beautiful mind would be more along the lines of Inner Circle’s Sweat (a La La La Long). And, oh boy, you do make me sweat at your every loving touch and move!

I meet your every, passionate thrust as we both feel the mighty momentum building, which will carry us over the edge. Our pace increases. Our breathing quickens. Waves of pleasure are flooding us all the way to climax, as the divine beauty of our lovemaking culminates for me in the pure delight of receiving your seed of life. Hallelujah! is all I can think of, as you make my fire explode and let the sparks fly! And then… having come full circle… we lay in each other’s arms anew, lovingly intertwined as one, in body, spirit and soul. What a gift God has given me in you! What a pure bliss to share such precious, endless love, with only you, forevermore!

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33 replies
  1. Oldersingle says:

    Very, very excited for you as you anticipate this wonderful fantasy – God has surely been preparing you (and him) for this moment. I, too, wait for such a moment. Blessings to you! (Still very busy with the new door God has opened for me, but hope to be back on here more often soon)

  2. Alicia G. M. says:

    Beautiful story Passionate for Christ! So well written and with so much love. You are wrong about one thing however. This story did dampen my panties. Well done! Thank you so much my friend.

    • Snag says:

      I really like your comments on various entries on MH, Alicia, including this one. Just wondering whether you will be writing your own accounts of newly wed Marriage Heat anytime soon. It would be great to get reflections on first love making that are recent as opposed to recollections from a long time ago. I hope that you will consider doing so.

    • Alicia G. M. says:

      Snag,

      Yes, I have a story in the works. Finding time to finish it is the issue. Thank you for your interest, makes me feel good.

  3. cameron says:

    Well I am going along with Alicia I did get a little damp. I love the story and I founded that if you have thoughts like these just right them down. Even now if i have some fun thought hit me in the morning or at work I will right it down and then later show them to Jake.

    Take care and I hope you fined a loving man that can come on to your life soon and make all your DREAMS come TRUE.

    • PassionateForChrist says:

      Dear Lisa and Michael, thank you so much! These words spoken out of your heart are indeed special to me. I admire you both for the godly couple you are. Yours is another beautiful example of a lovingly devoted, hot marriage I’m blessed to witness and be inspired by on here. Thank you!! God bless you!!

  4. PassionateForChrist says:

    Alicia, Cameron, Oldersingle – my dear sweet friends, thank you so much for having left a reply! I can’t tell you the joy it brings to my heart to hear from you all and to be encouraged by you in the loving way that you do! So happy you all enjoyed it too! I must say I did enjoy myself waking up to it – feeling, as I ran along this pleasant dream, my future hubby’s touch moving from within. It was almost as if he would be right there with me… That’s the power of the Spirit. There’s no distance in Spirit.

    Dear Oldersingle, thank you so much for having sweetly stopped by to leave a lovely note! I appreciate that so much. And I’m so grateful for the friendship God blesses me to have with you. From the start, you’ve been a blessing to me. I love the dedication and work you put into the opportunity God opened up for you! God will surely crown all your efforts with success, for we can never out-give God. I love your heart for Him. I sure hope that one day God will bless me to see the great things He does through you.

    Dearest Alicia, thank you so much for your precious words! I love the blessing you are to me (and I’m sure to many more). You are one awesome lady! And it’s a joy to my heart to be able to call you friend. Ps.: Haha! 🙂 That’s one thing I’m more than happy about to have been wrong on!! Thank you!! I’m learning so much still about confidence in general as well as about sexy confidence 🙂 I love MH so so much!! Deeply grateful to God for having led me on here and helping me to grow, learn about and flourish among you all in wisdom, knowledge, confidence, experience and so much more! You are taking part in helping me to be able to start my future marriage in a mighty blessed way. It’s gonna be blessed and HOT and wholly devoted to God. I can’t wait to embark on this sacred adventure of a lifetime!! 🙂

    Dearest Cameron, thank you so much for all you spoke (thank you especially for the all caps at the end! I totally appreciate the hearty zeal behind this! 🙂 )! I more than gladly join my faith with yours for this loving, godly man to cross my path soon, so that my dreams and his dreams will powerfully combine and become this immeasurable blessing that we will be able to create through each other for one another! Writing them down is a good idea! I’m sure my future hubby would love to read them all. Sometimes it turns out a little harder to put it in words though… I’ve had a great love session one morning after waking up to some sexy thought (I found out I’m a morning horny girl… and I like it! 🙂 )… Sometimes it almost takes like nothing and I’m right there ready to explode, sometimes it takes some hearty work to rev up that engine, even though the pleasure hunger is burning on the inside… I like both – when I’m so hot that I can get almost instantly off, I get to enjoy the perk of multiple rounds of pleasure (’cause then I usually don’t stop after one high 😉 ); on the other hand, revving up the engine gives me the perk of getting to shop around longer and work that pleasurable thing 🙂 That morning I had to rev it up but, oh my goodness, did I reach a good one! The afterglow was amazing! Never felt an afterglow that way before – through my entire body, I felt this incredible serenity… it was divine. I wanted to write a story about that one but was left lost for words as I sat down to put it in a story. Haha! So here y’all go… Getting to enjoy it in the comments now 🙂

    It’s super exciting to me to find out more and more about how God has beautifully made me through this beautiful community – through your encouragement, your input, the wisdom you all share and your love. It’s definitely gonna benefit my marriage and husband in great ways. Thank you for everything!!

    If you all don’t mind, it is my pleasure to share with all my friends on here that I’m super excited to come to the beautiful state of Texas in November this year. I’ve waited a long time with God to make that possible for me and I’m super duper excited about it! Don’t know if any of you are from that region (Houston and DFW) of the beautiful USA… I love Texas! God has given me my church home there (He has planted me there in Spirit and brought me unto salvation in Christ there) and it has been a lifelong dream of mine to live there, to make my home there and build my family for the Lord there with my future hubby one fine day. I’m way beyond excited that God blesses me to have 2 whole weeks back in the land I so love and cherish, back with my friends at my church home, fellowshipping together and giving mighty praise to God, worshipping our sweet God together. Wish I could share some time there with you too, my dear friends, and just thank you and invite you to a Starbucks or church. I know, it would kind of take a miracle of God. But I just want to say: I love you all and absolutely cherish the friendships we have! God bless!!

  5. Ashleigh says:

    Passionate, you go girl!!! I too can say that you were wrong about your story not being panty wetting material. As I lay here in bed – husband is already out the door for work and my little man is not yet awake for school- my time alone in bed has been spent reading this story…and girl I. Am. Wet! I loved your comment about quickies vs spending time to rev…this morning is gonna be an exploration and revving morning for me 🙂 thx so much for the inspiration! As I type this with a damp spot on my panties my left hand is up my shirt and my nipples are gardening to my touch. Soon my fingers will lay my phone down and slide inside the waistband of my panties to find my folds. My lips are aching for my touch. You are a fantastic writer and I can’t wait to read more! I am in the Houston region so welcome back to Texas soon 🙂 I’m Ashleigh btw. Thanks for the inspiration this morning. Laying my phone down now…

    • PassionateForChrist says:

      Dear Ashleigh, you made my day!! Thank you so much! 🙂 Oh, that was one hot, fresh-out-of-the-oven comment! As I read it, it reminded me of how I like to do a little foreplay with my breasts myself at the moment… and that turned me on! It’s a bit funny… When I began to pleasure myself (which was not too long ago), I just focused on my thighs and lovely belly to build some excitement before getting to the hotspot of love. I was a newbie with little prior knowledge and was learning by experience, as I stepped out into the unknown myself. Some time after having discovered MH, I read in different stories how the ladies were playing with their breasts while pleasuring themselves, describing how it was such a pleasure to them and their husbands. So, I stepped out to try some breast play… I remember, the first couple of times, when I touched my breasts – stroking and kneading them – I was so surprised ’cause I felt NOTHING special happening. I actually thought to my breasts “Hey girls, aren’t you supposed to set some kind of hot spark off in me when I play with you?! What’s up?!” I thought, maybe my girls are just receptive to the manly, husbandly touch… so I didn’t bother with it further. Then, one fine morning, dressed in a cotton shirt, warmly wrapped up under my cover, I woke up, lying on my back, my left arm resting over my belly and chest with my hand covering my right breast… I felt really turned on inside and started to carress it through the cotton fabric… First the outlines, gently tracing its softness… Then my fingertips started to draw circles around my nipple, clockwise and counterclockwise, going round and round, as if they would be on a Nascar course… the feeling of my fingertips’ firmer pressure on my soft breast, through the sweet softness of the cotton fabric of my shirt, was such a turn-on! Sparks went off in me and my nipple rose to attention… I was ready for action! That was my ‘breast awakening’ 😉

      Ashleigh, thank you so much for the encouragement! I hope my future hubby will like the MH community as I do ’cause I’m totally game with sharing some stories… and the best ones will definitely come once married 🙂

      It’s such a pleasure to get to know you on here! My beloved church home is in Houston. Been there in 2013 for the first time and have been heartily anticipating to come back ever since I stepped on that airplane that brought me back home. I’m bursting with excitement and happiness! Thank you for welcoming me back 🙂 You’re part of my MH family, a sister in Christ, and I consider you a friend. If God is willing, you are definitely invited to a Starbucks or church then. Count me in. I’m Julia, btw. Much love and blessings!

  6. Ashleigh says:

    Lol Julia! Nice to meet you and glad I could return the favor 😛 yes I would love to join you at a Starbucks or church. Idk how we would be able to exchange info bc I think the moderators are very protective of marriage – as they should be. My husband and I attend a very large church in Houston but it feels smaller bc of all the wYs to be involved and support missions. He’s unfortunately not a huge fan of MH but I am and he let’s me enjoy it without bothering me. My engine revving was super successful earlier and this mama made herself smile twice! 🙂 hope yours was too!!!

    • PassionateForChrist says:

      Yes, the moderators are doing an excellent and definitely very important job on here. I appreciate the thoughtful and dedicated hard work they put into all of it a lot, for it is certainly essential to keep the beautiful project and ministry, that MH is, pure and safe.

      My church home is a very large church in Houston too… Wouldn’t it be just funny if we happen to speak of the same beautiful church? The church where God led me to, my church home is known worldwide… they have an amazing praise and worship team and choir… they have services on Wednesday, Saturday and Sunday… and great Bible classes on Mondays…

      Don’t know either yet how to make it work 🙂 All I can think of as a possibility is to give you my Twitter (there I could inform you about my travel over DM)… I had retweeted, over the tweet button of the article, Lovinghusband’s wonderful article about ‘Marriage Heat Balance’ the day it came out, ’cause that one was one I definitely wanted to pass along for all to read, so full of precious truth and wisdom… so it’s not like I have never before linked up my Twitter with my sweet MH world. Provided it would be ok with the moderators, maybe that would be a way… no worries though, we still got plenty of time to figure something out till November 🙂

      Ps.: Yay!, and Yes! Mine felt so fine too 😀

    • cameron says:

      Ashleigh don’t worry about the husband thing lol. Jake was the same way for a long time, but he wormed up to it. So maybe your’s will to.

    • Ashleigh says:

      Lol thx Cameron! I hope so too! Until then I love coming on here and getting ready for him 🙂 I’ve been purring all day! He’s not gonna know what hit him after our son goes to bed hehehe

    • cameron says:

      LoL I know those nights. We just had one of them this last weekend and I am still a little sore from it lol. Take care and I hope to read some of your stories.

  7. Lovinghusband says:

    I’ve not been part of this conversation – but just want to say how encouraging it is to see the unity in Christ and support you ladies are showing each other on MH. It warms my heart. God bless you Ashleigh, Cameron, and Julia! You weren’t even trying to encourage someone like me – but you did. LH

    • PassionateForChrist says:

      Dear LH, thank you so much! You’re always more than welcome to join into any conversation I’m involved in. You are always such a blessing! And I know I’m not the only one leaving more enriched, uplifted and loved through what you share. God bless you, Sir!

  8. PassionateForChrist says:

    Dear Ashleigh, dear friends, I’ve gotten an idea – tested and tried it… and it works – for how I could communicate to you my Twitter username without having it permanently out in the open.

    Provided the moderators are ok with it, I will shortly (for only about a day) add my Twitter username at the end of my ‘About PassionateForChrist’ section (to be found under this story of mine), so you can find me over there. I’d add it a little later today, and remove it then again tomorrow. Would that be ok with y’all?

  9. PassionateForChrist says:

    Thank you all for bearing with me, as I’ve been stepping out a bit on my heart’s call! I know that such graciousness, as you’ve extended it, is not to be taken for granted. Thank you, MH team and MH community! I’ve added it but can’t see it when I’m not logged in… so I don’t know if it works now after all. Never mind though if it doesn’t. With hand on heart, I just love my MH home!! God bless!

    • PassionateForChrist says:

      Lol!! Cameron, you’re a good kind of awesome! 😉 No problem, we’ve got more than enough room on MH to stay in touch… I intend to be an MH member for like ever. This beloved community is Christian family to me.

  10. Deane says:

    Hi PassionateForChrist! (Or Julia, as I've just found out you name is from this story). Thank you for sharing this beautiful fantasy, Julia! Only, it isn't just a fantasy, it's something you'll make come true with that godly man the Lord will bring into your life in His own time.

    I can see you're a very sensual young woman with a high sex drive, and it's heartwarming to see that channeled in the right direction! You're waiting for that one man God brings you; in the meantime, your heart and mind are full of heavenly thoughts of giving your body and soul to that man. Wow, you have a vivid imagination, and a contagious one at that — I'm sure there will be lots of throbbing cocks and creamy pussies here! I couldn't resist stroking myself, and I see from the others' comments that I'm not the only one! For me, it brings back memories of my own wedding night, 21 years ago, when my beautiful bride, innocent then as you are now, opened her body to me. I'll never forget the thrill of excitement when she showed me into her "pulsating garden" (to use your words — they're so vivid and to the point!) and we both experienced that mingling of our liquids and merging of our flesh for that very first time.

    Blessings to you, my sister. I know from another thread that you've had a recent experience which hurt you deeply and you've been in my thoughts and prayers. But that only goes to show that God has another man, a better man, for you, and, painful as it was, it will turn out to be in the mercy of God that you found out now rather than later that Alex wasn't the right one. But there IS a right man somewhere, and God will bring you together. Meanwhile, give your nipples a tender stroke and your pussy a good rub, and let these beautiful thoughts of being taken body and soul by that special man fill your mind and comfort you deeply.

    Once again, my dear sister, blessings to you!

  11. PassionateForChrist says:

    Dearest Deane, I've just discovered your comment on my fantasy… sorry that I didn't catch it sooner but I'm so glad I did see it now! 🙂 Thank you so so much for all the encouragement, the praise, the support and the love!!! It means the world to me and is incredibly helpful to me on this journey!!

    Thank you so much for having kept me in prayer and in good thoughts!!! God definitely has been watching over me closely and graciously protects me on all sides, for which I am deeply grateful! A final chapter to the Alex story occurred while I was back at my church home in TX these past 2 weeks… but yet again, the man has proven that he is at his core nothing but lies and broken promises. His actions are ridiculous. The last thing I had shared with my MH family was that he played the gay card on me when I asked him to simply meet either me or my friend so I could just give him the gifts I had bought for him – he played the gay card and I got it, I heard him, he wanted me to be gone and not meet and not have gifts and so I answered him accordingly telling him that I hear what he was telling me here between the lines and that I wouldn't mess with him further. Since I had shared a considerable amount of personal information about my trip to Houston with him – including when I'd come and where I would stay and all – and since he knew my name and how I look like (while I don't know any of his personal information) – I felt led within myself to take immediate proper precautions concerning my then upcoming travel. I had to take into account the worst cases and the possibility of him "stalking" me during my stay was highly possible. I felt like I couldn't find rest at night if I would stay in the hotel I planned and booked my room to stay in… I felt like I couldn't be safe there anymore – stalking is possible there without calling attention to oneself, as there is a Starbucks in the Lobby, being hijacked is possible since I would have to go through a short but not very much frequented area of a parking garage to get to my church… so if someone would have evil intentions, the danger is possible… I wouldn't be able to find peace in my hotel anymore, since I would have to second guess every man that would pass my way there, I would fear every elevator ride if a man would happen to be in the elevator with me, I would fear that he could have called the hotel asked for me by name and then could have found out my room number… to cut a long story short, I took it all into account and didn't feel safe in my choice of hotel anymore… So, after his gay card play, I changed the hotel immediately, so he wouldn't know anymore where I would stay and sleep at night during my stay. As y'all know, I had been in close touch about the Alex matter with my friend who is a police officer and kept her posted about everything – she does security at my church home too and has informed the security team at church about the Alex matter and they watched out for him (a suspicious male around me – since we didn't know what he looks like) and kept an extra eye on me so I would be safe at all times, just in case. God has given me the greatest friends in Christ a girl can ask for! They went out of their way for me and I'm grateful that they so heartily love me from tip to toe! Sure enough, about a week before my departure to Houston, Alex reached back out to me by mail, telling me that he now did want to meet with my friend after all, that he will now be a month in Houston (and not just the 2 weeks he "planned" to come out to Houston to be there with me), that he will be at my church every day and that he will only come for church. (Of course! Lie after lie after lie. And now I was really glad I had changed my hotel already). In his mail he put some more blame on me and professed that he is a "man of his word" and that he had gifts he wanted to give me. He never mentioned any gifts before (but as everything that proceeds out of his mouth this too was but a lie – as proven by how it all played out). He dared to ask me for a place to meet where it would be safe FOR HIM (making it be as if I would be a threat to him) – well, I was happy to grant him that wish and told him to meet my friend at church before service and that she would be waiting for him at this and this time right next to the security office – so he wouldn't have to worry, he would be safe there. My friend was willing to do it – although she didn't think he would deserve me giving him that opportunity but she would do it for me… and so I set up the meeting between the 2 of them. He right away agreed to come – he professed to be there. I told him I would be somewhere nearby but would respect his space. The day before the meeting he reached back out to me professing about how he would be at service and come with 12 friends of his and would be in the front rows (where he knew I would sit when at service) and that he hoped to see me. I thought to myself "Is this some kind of attempt to intimidate me?" Ridiculous. Then came the day, I had my gifts with me, all packed up beautifully, and me and my friend were at church an hour before the time we agreed to meet with him (the meeting was 1 hour before the service would begin, so there was plenty of time to make it happen successfully). There was not much going on at church that night and so my friends could keep a good watch. The time went by and Alex didn't show up for the meeting. A man of his word! My friend escorted me into service and she brought me back home safely afterwards. We kept our guard up during my stay. The 2 weeks went by and on the day I was to head back home, Alex reached back out to me anew and asked me where I was and that he "really wanted my police friend to meet his police friends". Yeah, right. He is such a liar. But, as my friend and I both suspected, he was there at church but didn't present himself – he was watching me but was too much of a coward to approach – I had a heartily fun time with my friends (cops and all others) all throughout the night, we laughed so hard and enjoyed being together, and that probably "pissed him off" (sorry for the language but that nails it best) – and then he chose to reach back out on the day he knew I would fly back home because this way there would be no other chance to set up another meeting and he could feel good about himself again by once again avoiding responsibility for his dishonesty and actions and putting it as if I wouldn't have been there. I was there and he knows it. So far, I haven't answered him back anything and I don't intend to – he is nothing but lies and I will not respond to lies anymore. My time and destiny are too valuable for that. I have given him my best and it is not my responsibility what he does with it. My conscience is right with God and He taught me a lot of valuable lessons through this whole chapter, for which I am forever grateful – He gave me opportunity to grow from this and I love that about God! Nothing is ever wasted in His hands – no experience, no hardship, nothing.

    Dear Deane, yes, I am hopeful that there is a right man out there somewhere for me – God is faithful! And He wouldn't have given me the dream, this desire of my heart, if He wouldn't have the plan and intention to fulfill it in due time. I've got many reasons to rejoice in the Lord! He is indeed so very good!! 🙂 And I am grateful to be able to enjoy myself whenever I do, covered by His Presence with me. Thank you so much for your love and support, Deane!! Also, my dear MH family!! You make a difference in my life that always points me to Christ – and this is a treasure immeasurable to have! Thank you!!! God bless you all!!! <3

    Much love,

    PfC

    • MatthewLV says:

      funny story; but I definitely would not hang out with a girl who tries to ambush me either.
      Lots of wrong on both sides here

  12. Deane says:

    My dear sister, I'm so sorry I've only just seen your reply! And I'm so sad to hear about the agony you went through! May Christ envelop you in His love and goodness and speak to you about the next step on your journey. You've been through a lot of pain and heartache, but I'm so glad to see you're treating it as a learning experience and that your loving heart is still open, both to the Lord and to what He has for you. Of this I'm sure: God DOES have a man for you, who will be worthy of you! And God WILL make your path converge with his. How … Where … God ways are often a mystery. You may not know the path, but you do know your Guide! Keep your hand in His and God will bring you the man of your dreams — in fact, better than your dreams. You are in my prayers, my precious sister. Much love to you too!

  13. PassionateForChrist says:

    Dearest Deane, thank you for being such a blessing to my heart!! Thank you for taking time and speaking life over me, words of love and comfort!! Thank you for your prayers!! God bless you, dear friend, dearest brother in Christ, for your heart of compassion and care!! It keeps amazing me, this faith and assuredness that you, sweet friend, and my beloved MH family has in that I would for sure be blessed with this man of my dreams, a future husband, that it would be just a matter of time. I must admit, I have no hope for it really anymore in me. I have taken a sober look at who I am and what it would require to have a viable chance at even just having a potential relationship and I have run out of faith for it. I don't fit the way people are used to interact in this "game" they make love be (the finding and the pursuing of it) and this is just simply something I will not grow into… I will not get used to it and I can't adapt myself to this – not without changing who I am at my core, how I was made to be. I'm giving up on this dream of mine – I know my heart will still keep a glimmer of hope somewhere in its own dark, hidden depths, that's just what it does, but I'm not believing for it to happen anymore for me, I'm not gonna look for it anymore. My love for God is unbroken, and the love I find in my heart, I will keep pouring it out – that I may continue to be a blessing in His Name wherever He has me.

    Hope you've had a most beautiful Christmas with your beloved and dear ones! God bless you, Deane!! Heartiest of love to you, my friend!

  14. Deane says:

    You know, my sister, I really appreciate how open you are about all this! You've touched on an issue that most singles either can't or won't address — and then find it raises its head after marriage, when it can cause problems. BIG problems. I'm glad to see you're facing the issue head on NOW!

    My sister, I wouldn't dream of advising you in this matter. Nor am I attempting to prophesy. I DO believe in prophetic words, but this isn't one of them. I'm not saying that God told me what I'm about to say — because He didn't. I simply offer it as the viewpoint of a brother who's a bit older, and has therefore seen a few things, both good and bad. So here goes: I've seen a lot of marriages. And you know what? MANY of the marriages that I thought most likely to succeed, didn't. On the other hand, some of the marriages I had real doubts/concerns/fears about, made it. My younger sister's marriage is a case in point —I really felt she was making a huge mistake when she got married 22 years ago. They were so … different. Incompatible, I would have said. But you know what? Their marriage has lasted! Most family members, on both sides, opposed it. I myself didn't say much openly (because I didn't want to burn bridges), but privately I had very big doubts. They've had struggles, for sure. But they've made it work. They've survived a bankruptcy and worse. Their marriage today is a model! I was wrong! And I'm glad that I was wrong. On the other hand, as I said, I've known couples that I thought were absolutely ideal for each other. But they ended up shipwrecked. The lesson I've learned? "Compatibility" – or the lack of it – can be deceptive.

    God's ways are not our ways. Look through the Bible and look at the people God used, and what He used them for. How often did God use people who appeared to be "qualified"? Hardly ever. He nearly always chose people for roles that they were completely unqualified — or sometimes even DISqualified — for, and went on to shape them and transform them.

    If you don't mind, I'd love to address a couple of your comments. Please forgive me if I'm being too forward —I assure you that's not my intention!

    "I don't fit the way people are used to interact in this "game" they make love be (the finding and the pursuing of it) and this is just simply something I will not grow into…" — you're not alone, PFC! I didn't fit that game either. Neither did my wife. We "found" each other by accident — but not really. In God's economy of things, there are no accidents. Never. Psalm 77:19 — "Your path led through the sea, your way through the mighty waters, though your footprints were not seen." Get that last part — we can't usually see God's footprints. But He's there! Also, John 3:8 — "The wind blows wherever it wills. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.” Just as we can't see the wind, but only see its after-effects, we can't usually see what God is up to, until after He's done it. There are exceptions, yes, but they are just that. We just have to trust Him.

    "I will not get used to it and I can't adapt myself to this – not without changing who I am at my core, how I was made to be". — Thank you for your honesty! You know, there are at least four dynamics at work here. (1) Who/what you are. (2) Who/what your future husband is. (3) Who/what you are called to be. (4) Who/what he is called to be. Changes at the core of your being — as well as his? Well, yes and no. God created you — and your future husband — as raw materials (forgive me if that sounds crude). The basic material won't change. But the diamond will be cut. Believe me, it will be. Don't ask me how — I just know God does that to every soul that follows Him! But don't try to do it yourself — that never works. Let God do it. He will!

    I'm glad you don't see it in you, Julia — simply because it isn't in you! It's in the LORD! As you walk in His ways, you'll find that His plans and purposes for your life will take shape, most often without you being consciously aware of it. And yes, I truly do believe that includes a godly man, just for you.

    I'm giving up on this dream of mine" — you're not the first. Abraham is known today as the father of faith. But if you read his story, read between the lines. You'll see how he really lost the plot. God gave him promises for over a decade — but nothing more. Abraham REALLY lost the plot. After he fathered another son (Ishmael) by another woman, God never spoke to him again — for some 13 more years — and when God finally showed up, 24 years now since His first promise, Abraham had long since lost the dream. He was no longer waiting for it. He no longer believed in it (See Genesis 17 and read carefully). Abraham had lost the plot. But God hadn't.

    "I know my heart will still keep a glimmer of hope somewhere in its own dark, hidden depths" — that, my sister, is your seed of faith. Buried. And remember that Jesus said that a seed has to die — be buried — before God can bring it to life (John 12:24). Bury that seed. Let it die. And see what God will do with it!

    Yes, I had a wonderful Christmas! I trust you did too, and I pray that 2017 will be your most blessed year yet. Much love, my sister (and I'm SO proud to call you my sister!)

  15. PassionateForChrist says:

    Wow, thank you so so much, Deane!! That was so comforting and encouraging – a due word in due season to my heart! Thank you for offering me this perspective, this hope, and for showing me that even though I feel like I'm totally down and out, a hopeless case, I'm actually still in the fight and still headed in a good direction!

    Of course I don't mind, my dear brother, and you can never be too forward with me – I very much cherish and appreciate your input and the great heart of compassion behind it all! Thank you for reminding me of these Scripture truths and for giving me a fresh vantage point on some!! You've shared great wisdom here and such meaningful encouragement – I'll keep all this close for sure. Thank you so much for strengthening my heart and for lifting my spirits!! 🙂 <3

    Yes, I've had a sweet and calm Christmas – church was awesome too! 🙂 Thank you so much, Deane!! May 2017 be full of God's invaluable treasures for you and yours – love, joy, peace, memories made, lots and dear, and so much more that is to be found in His immeasurable abundance and the preciousness of His Presence with us!! Deane, thank you for being such a blessing of a brother in Christ!! I am deeply grateful for your company on the journey, for your friendship and your continuous support and loving leadership in the faith!! God bless you and much love!

    And Happy New Year to my dear MH family and friends!! (45 minutes left to wait where I am at till 2017 kicks officially off) 🙂 Richest blessings to you all for 2017!! Love y'all much!! <33

  16. Bighuged says:

    Beautiful story! Like some of the other commenters mentioned already, just because you’re not married doesn’t mean you can’t write a hot story! It made my manhood rise to attention and dripping with precum! I’m single too and I dream of moments like this with my future wife as well. Thanks for the post!

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