My wife and I have been faithfully and happily married for more than 20 years, I truly cannot express in words how I feel about her, she was and is the love of my life, my soulmate, my best friend and my awesome lover. She’s the most loving and kind person that I’ve ever met, and let me not forget, the hottest sexiest babe I know (a voluptuous blue-eyed blond with super sexy big tits)!
We started dating when I was 26 and she was 24 and I couldn’t take my eyes off of her, two years later we got married and are truly blessed to have experienced a long and happy marriage journey together, two beautiful and talented kids and are pretty content with our lives. Sure, we had some tough times, in our relationship, in our finances, in our sex lives, in our careers, etc., make no mistake sometimes it was EXTREMELY tough, but we always served the Lord together and He has been faithful to the end! Looking back, if I had to do it all over again, I would without a drop of a doubt, pick her again, and whatever we’ve had and built together. I love and desire her just as much now as the day we met, if not more!
I’ve been a reader on MH for the last few years and also started to contribute stories for the last four months or so, this wonderful site and community had a profound impact on my life. I never knew that there could be something like a “Erotic Christian Marriage Sex Site,” or that something like that even existed! After some time, I also introduced my wife to the site and we’ve read some stories together, however, she spends very little time here, unlike myself, that was immediately drawn because of my much higher sex drive.
I’m very passionate about God, my wife, and marriage sex, which I can enjoy on this site! I would describe us as my wife a (one time a week), and me as a (3 to 4 times a week) person, as far as needs are concerned, if that makes any sense? Marriage Heat and it’s members has educated, and changed me, as far as my own sexuality is concerned, a sexual awakening if you will. I realized that the way I feel and the needs I have is nothing to be ashamed of, many, many others share the same feelings, in fact I now enjoy and celebrate it! I always had a lot of sexual desires but never knew what to do with them, I think, like most boys growing up without sexual education, I had lots of bad connections towards sex.
MH taught me that sex is beautiful, created by God for us to enjoy our bodies, and our spouses to it’s fullest within the confines of the marriage covenant, my wife and I now masturbate together or apart and our sex life has most definitely been enhanced in a positive manner, we are more open and playful. I feel like I do not have to push her for more intimate time nearly as much as before. My interactions on MH provides an outlet for healthy masturbation, of which I must stress, is always about thoughts of my wife, and my wife only. I’ve never had a problem with porn or fantasies about any other woman except my wife. I regularly read the stories and comments on MH when I need sexual stimulation, which inevitably triggers thoughts of my wife, it makes me hard and I then stroke myself to some wonderful orgasms. So I guess it’s all good or is it?
I have the following question – ever so often I catch myself wondering if I’m doing something wrong by personally engaging on MH on such a regular basis, instead of us doing it together as a couple? I’ve always felt that I mostly hear the voice of the Lord very clearly when He speaks to me, I felt it’s a gift that God has blessed me with. And in this case I’ve never, ever had an uneasy or uncomfortable feeling or voice telling me that I’m doing something wrong,
I’m completely open and brutally honest, to the core actually, my wife are aware of it and she can read any and all writings on MH at any time and share my deepest feelings that are completely exposed – something that I would assume every spouse would highly appreciate! I do realize that she mostly does not share the same drive and appetite for sexual stimulation, and I’m sure she does not need to, or want to hear about all of this all the time. It is obviously a much bigger part of my life and something that I engage and enjoy much more than she does (not that she doesn’t enjoy sex, in fact, let me be clear, she’s a extremely hot and sexy lover and almost always have very powerful and enjoyable multiple orgasms).
Is this acceptable and ok within marriage, or is it improper and selfish, how should I handle it, or is there a case for me not taking any further part in it at all? My wife and I do not hold ANY secrets and I almost feel guilty writing this without her, but again, we will share this and she has full access, I think we will both agree that it is sometimes a good thing asking for some independent advice on a specific topic and re-evaluate one’s position if need be.
I came to realize that I enjoy reading, writing and masturbating over here, but like always, I would like to honor my wife first and foremost, and maybe I’m over thinking things too much and maybe I should just continue enjoying it in a healthy Godly manner? Anyway, I would still like to double-check myself and would really appreciate some thoughts, experiences and Godly advice from others regarding the thoughts that I’ve shared in this regard, thank you in advance to the beautiful MH community, may God continue blessing you all abundantly!