Although my husband and I were not virgins when we married, we did gift each other with our virginities. After that we had ups and downs. We lived together, slept together, etc…in other words we were out of Gods will. And we paid for it. We broke up and I went through a deep depression that led to promiscuity.
To this day I regret ever being in that place, in that state of mind. We both repented and asked forgiveness before we married and prayed over our marital bed. Now on to my story!
Our marriage bed is a place where I felt shame and guilt for so long. Even though I’d asked Gods forgiveness, I still held guilt in my heart for having been promiscuous. One night after reading MH, I was in bed alone as hubby was traveling for work. I had read several stories about marriage purity and about couples who were not virgins when married.
I began to sob as I realized that I wasn’t alone. I cried out to God to take away my guilt and to remove all of the “demons” of my past from the marriage bed. I asked God to give me the words to explain all of this to my husband. (Its worth mentioning that although we had broken up, my husband never had sex with anyone else).
When hubby got home the next evening, I greeted him with a big hug and tear-filled eyes. He noticed right away and asked what was wrong. I said, “follow me.” I led him to the bedroom where I turned down the covers and climbed in. He followed my lead and we sat facing one another. As tears ran freely down my cheeks, I explained how I’d prayed the night before, how I was so sorry for my past, how I was ready to move on. He pulled me into his arms and held me as I sobbed.
We did not make love that night but the intimacy and the oneness was something I still have trouble describing. We have been very blessed since that day and I just want to say thank you to all of you on marriage heat!! God bless!